vstars Chapter 528 Rose Boy
Chapter 528 Rose Boy
Chapter 528 Rose Boy
In the toilet, Feng Ying pushed Bai Xuezhou away and complained, "Don't bother me, stay away from me!"
Bai Xuezhou frowned and asked, "Stop messing around, rinse your mouth quickly, I told you to drink less and not talk loudly, but you just didn't listen."
Feng Ying's eyes were red, but she deliberately spoke loudly: "Why do you care so much about me? You are not my parents!"
Bai Xuezhou grabbed her wrist and said as gently as possible: "But I promised your parents that I would take good care of you."
"Bai Xuezhou! Who do you think you are? Why do you think you can take care of me?" Perhaps the alcohol took effect, Feng Ying grabbed Bai Xuezhou's collar and asked, "Do you like me?"
"...You are drunk." Bai Xuezhou said after a long silence.
Feng Ying shook her head: "I didn't, I have liked you for thirteen years!"
Feng Ying didn't give Bai Xuezhou any chance to speak. She just pulled him into her arms and kissed him hard on the lips with her beautiful red lips like a surging tide.
Compared to Feng Ying who boldly expressed her love, Bai Xuezhou who was forcibly kissed was more like a little girl at a loss. He looked at the other party with horror and wanted to resist, but his hands were held tightly by the other party.
After an unknown amount of time, Feng Ying suddenly woke up. She looked at Bai Xuezhou, who had a panicked look on his face, as if he was being forced, and was a little stunned.
Feng Ying didn't know why she was out of control tonight. Perhaps it was because she saw that Gu Chenxi, who was a year younger than her, had a boyfriend who took care of her, bought a house for her, and created a fairy-tale happy and warm home for her.
So she envied, so she was jealous...
How she wished Bai Xuezhou could like her, even a little bit!
But, Bai Xuezhou...he doesn't like girls...
Bai Xuezhou gently touched Feng Ying's head and whispered, "Yingying, I'm sorry, I really... don't like girls... You should just treat me as your brother, or as your sister."
"Can I have my hair cut short? I want a buzz cut!" The usually decisive and handsome girl now said in a pleading tone, "Can you please change a little for me, love me a little more, please? Please!"
"Stop it!" Bai Xuezhou said seriously, "Sexual orientation is my problem, it has nothing to do with you. I can't lie to myself. At least... I really can't pretend to love you very much now... I can't hurt you..."
"I'm sorry, I may be crazy tonight..."
"No, you are right. I am sorry for you. I am sorry!"
"call……"
Feng Ying let out a breath, and felt like a deflated ball, her whole body weakened.
She washed her face and hands and walked out of the bathroom.
When Bai Xuezhou came out, Feng Ying had already left with Lin Zhi. Wang Qi and Chen Zhirui, who had just finished exercising, also went upstairs to take a shower.
He grabbed the glass and took a big gulp of the wine.
Seeing Bai Xuezhou's depressed look, Kong Liu gently patted his shoulder and asked, "Did you have a fight?"
"That's right..."
Bai Xuezhou nodded, "She likes me, but..."
Bai Xuezhou was silent for a moment, then spoke again: "Gong Liu, can I talk to you?"
Gong Yoo nodded seriously, indicating that he was willing to be the other party's listener.
In the quiet wine cellar, there were only Baek Hak Suk and Gong Yoo, and they chatted a lot.
Talk about his childhood, talk about his childhood.
Bai Xuezhou said that he rarely saw his father since he was a child. When he was seven years old, his father died in the line of duty.
His father was a great hero who dedicated his life to this country and brought happiness to tens of millions of families. He was a drug police officer who lived in hiding and even after his death he could not leave his name on his grave.
Her mother was equally great, raising him up alone. Perhaps it was due to the lack of fatherly love in childhood, or perhaps it was due to respect for his father, or perhaps it was due to imitating his mother's behavior, or perhaps it was a combination of more complex emotions...
Gradually, he discovered that his emotional orientation was different from that of his friends.
It's like a female soul trapped in this male body.
During adolescence, this strange feeling became increasingly intense, causing him distress, withdrawal, and silence.
A guy who doesn't fit in is considered an outlier in the eyes of his classmates.
People in the small county town would never understand this kind of outlier. They treated him as a monster, and their bad words were like sharp knives, stabbing into his back, breaking his spine, and causing him to fall into an endless vortex of self-doubt.
His childhood sweetheart Feng Ying would stand up for him when he was bullied. He always knew that this girl liked him, but in his heart, he felt that he was the same as Feng Ying, he was also a "girl", so how could he accept her love?
He couldn't force himself to like this girl. It would be irresponsible to Feng Ying and would hurt her, so he avoided her again and again.
Finally, he was bullied again, this time in the men's room.
Finally, this time Feng Ying didn't arrive in time, and he was beaten all over...
Just when he was in despair, a boy appeared before him like a god from heaven and saved him.
Not only did it save his broken body, it also saved his...heart that was about to stop beating!
The boy, like him, is an "oddball" among boys. Although his own life is a mess, he still tells Bai Xuezhou to live well.
From then on, Bai Xuezhou no longer felt despair. He began to feel relieved and accepted the fact that he was a "strange person". With the help of the boy, he finally regained the courage to live.
When he was bullied again, he was no longer a coward. He picked up a weapon and fought with the opponent like a madman. This time...
He won!
From then on, no one bullied him anymore.
He was willing to bravely admit his "different" sexual orientation to everyone, and all this confidence was brought to him by that boy.
Because the boy often encouraged him: "Don't be afraid, you are not strange, love is free, you don't need to be controlled by the world!"
From then on, there was the sunny and confident Bai Xuezhou.
He thought that they would all get better, better than before.
But the boy died... He jumped off the building!
The sunny, confident boy who had been silently encouraging him and telling him not to be swayed by worldly opinions, could not withstand those "rumors" and ended his life forever in his second year of high school.
He will always remember the last message the boy sent him:
[Don’t be afraid of the world’s rumors, just be brave and be yourself. Even if I am gone in the future, don’t deny yourself. Love is free, always sunny and always confident. ]
Death comes like a wave, surging in and causing a huge storm, but soon sinks into the vast ocean, silently.
No one will remember the life that the boy lost, and the bully will never realize his mistake.
The only person who changed after the boy’s death was Bai Xuezhou.
His current bravery, sunshine, self-confidence and generosity were all left to him by the boy. Only he would remember that midsummer afternoon when a vibrant life forever remained at the age of sixteen.
He inherited the boy's optimism and continued to work hard to live...
(End of this chapter)