your gift of my love

Chapter 11 is not insoluble

"Su Jiaming." Jun Xiuye ​​said suddenly.

Su Jiaming, who had been called by his full name, was at a loss for a moment by his serious and serious tone.

"I think, I will never be able to fall in love with another person like I love you in my life." Even though I have lost heart to you, I still love you consistently.

Jun Xiuye ​​paused for a while, and then said: "I fell in love, that is, I fell in love, and I will not deny it. You are by my side these days, I don't know what you are planning, if you are seeking my love, then you You have already got it, and you can leave too; if it is because of a conflict with your brother, then you should leave even more, and you should think about how to make him happy with sweet words, instead of fighting with a person who cannot see things here. The people who have nothing to say are looking for something to talk about."

"Xiu Ye, you still don't believe that I love you, do you?" Su Jiaming was really frantic, the person he loves is right in front of him, but that person no longer believes that he loves him.Ming Ming held his lover's warm body in his arms, but he couldn't touch his heart.

After calming down for a while, he closed his eyes and placed himself in the same dark world as his lover at this moment, "Xiaoye, I know how meaningless it is for me to say the three words 'I love you'. I am really serious now. It doesn't matter if you don't believe me, you just need to give me a chance to prove it."

The person in his arms moved slightly.

"Xiaoye, don't move around, just keep listening to me. When I didn't know what love is, I felt that I fell in love with my brother. My mother passed away when I was very young. My father, who was busy with work, rarely came home after my mother passed away. At that time, I didn’t know what to do with the empty house, but fortunately, my brother was with me.”

"My brother was a junior high school student at the time, and he was studying in a national boarding high school. After his mother left, he submitted an application to the school and moved back home. For me at that time, my brother was my Everything. He taught me writing, taught me Mathematical Olympiad, played with me, and laughed with me... As the days went by, I became very dependent on him."

"The curriculum in junior high school is tighter than that in elementary school. A few times he came home late because of making up lessons. When I didn't see him, I missed him very much. The moment I saw him push the door in, I felt all the grievances waiting for him to go home. The smoke disappeared. I greeted him with a smile, and showed him the perfect test paper, and he touched my head gently. On my birthday, I would pester him to buy me a new car model. At the end of my elementary school On one’s birthday, he compromised and took me to his school. That day, they had a basketball game. When my brother played, I was so excited that I shouted in the audience, and he didn’t let me down. The shot must hit, and two three-pointers were shot. My brother’s class won. After the victory, someone in the team proposed to go to a movie. My brother may be concerned about me, he hesitated on the face, and then I don’t know who came to drink I said, 'Little brother is going too!', and I watched a movie with them." Speaking of this, Su Jiaming suddenly asked: "Are you bored?"

The person in his arms shook his head for a long time.

"That movie was about first love. After watching it, I realized that maybe I fell in love with my brother... In the following days, I became very sensitive. I found that I was really like the movie said, thinking every day I am with my brother all the time. When I can’t see him, I miss him. When I see him, I want to see him smile. But because he is my brother, the same sex as me, and I am related by blood, I I became very entangled, and I didn’t know how to face this relationship. At that time, I didn’t intend to give up this relationship that was bound to be criticized by the world, but I hadn’t waited for me to gather enough courage to confront my brother. He has gone abroad to study."

"My father hired a nanny, but I was already so old at that time, what's the use of having a nanny, I don't need her to be troublesome if I can take care of myself, and she can't take care of what I can't take care of myself. My brother left For a long time afterwards, I lived in a muddle..."

"Later, and later, I met you. The history area on the second floor of Seirin University Library. Do you remember? That was the first time I touched your hand."

""Bamboo Book Chronicles"." Jun Xiuye ​​said softly.

Su Jiaming nodded, "Yeah. The first time I saw you, I was wondering how could there be such a clean boy. Then, as I got in touch with you more and more, I got to know you better. It's a special feeling, being by your side, I can feel my heart is very peaceful."

Jun Xiuye ​​raised his eyebrows, "So, do you think I look like your brother?"

Su Jiaming shook his head hastily, "No, Xiaoye...you are you, he is him, no matter in reality or in dream, I have never confused you, because you are different, to me it is true It's different. My brother can give me a sense of stability and reliability, because he is used to keeping everything in his hands; but you can make me feel at ease, and make me feel that I can be understood and tolerated."

Jun Xiuye ​​remained silent.

"When I knew my brother was coming back, I hurried to the airport in city B. I knew that day was your 23rd birthday. At that time, I thought that as long as I saw my brother, I would immediately go back to city A to accompany him. You celebrated your birthday, but my brother's flight was delayed, and I didn't see my brother until the next day, so I missed your birthday."

Feeling the trembling of the person in his arms, Su Jiaming opened his eyes abruptly, only to see Jun Xiuye's face was blue and trembling all over, as if he was resisting those bad memories.Su Jiaming was extremely remorseful, it turned out that he had hurt him so deeply that he would be afraid even to recall it.

"Xiaoye? I won't talk about it...I won't talk about what happened next, I'm the bastard." Su Jiaming patted him on the back comfortingly, again and again, "Let's look ahead...you don't believe me , it doesn’t matter, I still say the same thing, you just need to give me a chance. Do you know how scared I was when I heard in the news that the express bus traveling from city B to city A collided with a truck. Then I suddenly understood how important you are to me... On the way to City A, I prayed over and over again that you would not be on the bus... But, fortunately, nothing serious happened to you in the end, remember I, love me too, be able to talk and make noise by my side..."

A week later, although Jun Xiuye's eyes had not recovered, he was ready to be discharged from the hospital.

Jun Xiuye ​​expressed his apologies and thanks to Li Yi.

Li Yi patted him on the shoulder open-mindedly, and advised him to go back to rest for a while, and return to work after recovering from his health. After finishing speaking, he seemed to remember something again. He said that when he was in the hospital, every night when he fell asleep, Su Jiaming watched quietly from the side.

Jun Xiuye ​​finally decided to live with Su Jiaming in the house they used to live together.

Rather than trouble Su Jiaming, he didn't want to bother his parents who were no longer young.

His parents agreed with his decision and asked him and Xiao Su to come over for dinner whenever he was free.

Jun Xiuye ​​said, "I don't have that kind of relationship with him anymore."

Jun's mother said: "Yes, Xiaosu has told us about the things between you... Hey, I can see that you like her very much, why are you so unwilling, who are you going to show? "

Jun Xiuye ​​said: "Mom, he has someone he likes, but that person is not me."

Mother Jun said: "When did you become so grumpy? He told you that, saying he likes others?"

"No, he said he loves me, but he just said it, so what?" In front of his mother, Jun Xiuye ​​was rarely childish.

Mother Jun said: "Is it just to say? Why don't I think? I don't care about you. Will you drive to the remote community where your father and I live, and then pester us to forgive you? Your father immediately took the belt and put it on him It’s exactly the same posture as back then!”

Jun Xiuye ​​was silent.

Jun's mother said earnestly, "I'm old and I don't understand the things about you young people... It's not easy to love someone, and that person also loves you. Why do you want to think about it so much? ?”

Sitting in the passenger seat, Jun Xiuye ​​suddenly asked, "Does it hurt?"

Su Jiaming, who was driving, was a little dazed when asked, "What?"

"My dad hit you, does it hurt?"

Only then did Su Jiaming realize that Jun Xiuye ​​was asking about going to his parents' residence that day, "It doesn't hurt."

Jun Xiuye ​​looked at him steadfastly, even though he couldn't see anything.

Su Jiaming felt a little guilty when he saw it, and repeated, "It really doesn't hurt."

Jun Xiuye ​​seemed to be a little unhappy and turned his head back, looking ahead, "You said you wanted me to believe you, but you lied to me?"

"Uh...Xiaoye, it's not like this..." Someone seemed to be struggling with the words, "Uh, yes...it hurts a little bit, my uncle is in great shape from martial arts!"

Even if he couldn't see it, Jun Xiuye ​​could still imagine the antics of a big man in a suit and leather shoes childishly gesticulating "a little bit" with his hands.When he heard Su Jiaming's last sentence "Uncle practiced martial arts very well", he finally couldn't hold back and burst out laughing.

Hearing Jun Xiuye's laughter, Su Jiaming's heart warmed up, and after stopping the car on the side of the road, he pressed a kiss on Jun Xiuye's forehead.

There was a hot and humid touch on his forehead, but Jun Xiuye ​​didn't push him away.

The soft lips moved down against the smooth skin.

Passing over the bridge of the straight nose, came to the side of the cool lips.

Seeing that Jun Xiuye ​​did not resist, Su Jiaming closed his eyes and kissed him.

At first, it was just a simple touch of lips to lips.Then, gradually dissatisfied, Su Jiaming nimbly knocked Jun Xiuye's teeth open with his tongue.

Jun Xiuye ​​didn't stop him, and didn't respond any more, he just let him do what he did.

And this is already a great satisfaction to the current Su Jiaming.

Perhaps, there is still a very solid knot between them, but as long as they try hard, the knot is not impossible.