vstars Chapter 211
Chapter 211
Nalan Jingwen's mind raced, and the more she thought about it, the more fantastical this world seemed. She raised her hand to rub her temples, trying to relieve her headache. Suddenly, a familiar scene flashed through her mind, her pupils trembled slightly, and her fingertips paused.
It seemed as if it had been discarded, or buried, and she was unwilling to accept it. She picked up those yellowed and old fragments of memory from the abandoned place again. Although it had been buried for so long, she felt that the memory was still fresh.
Perhaps unable to accept it, her body began to resist, trembling slightly, until the back of her hand felt like it was being burned. Only then did she realize that her eyes had been filled with scalding tears, which dripped onto the back of her hand.
Nalan Jingwen frowned slightly, raised his hand to touch his cheek, felt a wetness, paused for a moment, and then wiped away the tears.
Chenghe previously said that her prince was a kind person, not as terrible as those people said, and that she was not a bad child.
At that time, Nalan Jingwen, due to the lack of that memory, didn't take her words too seriously, but now it seems...
Chenghe had always been the one to take care of her and stay by her side. At that time, the Empress only asked Chenghe to pay more attention to her and did not focus too much attention on her. At that time, she thought that her father did not like her and preferred her older sister because her older sister was smart and well-behaved, while she was a bit dull and too ordinary in comparison. So it was normal for her father to favor her older sister.
She studied very hard with the Grand Tutor, obediently avoiding trouble, or deliberately getting injured, hoping that her father would pay more attention to her. She wouldn't compete with her elder sister; she just wanted her father to look at her more, but no matter what she did, she couldn't get what she wanted.
Perhaps because she was not favored, although the people in the palace dared not do anything to her, they always ignored her. The imperial sister punished many palace servants for this, and over time, those people dared not underestimate her.
My elder sister is the second person in the palace to treat her so well; the first was Cheng He.
She was obsessed with getting her father's attention, so her elder sister told her that as long as she behaved well, her father would definitely see her.
So she worked even harder than before, studying diligently and often doing her homework until midnight. She was careful with every step, afraid of making any mistakes, lest her father find out and despise her.
But she didn't understand why the harder she tried, the more disgusted her father looked at her. Even though the Grand Tutor praised her for doing a good job, why was her father unhappy?
Her desire for her father's attention, for the approval he showed her elder sister, had reached an almost pathological level, bordering on madness.
Chenghe couldn't bear to see her like this, so she kept trying to persuade her, but she refused. This matter had become an obsession, like a wildly growing vine that tightly bound and imprisoned her, making it impossible for her to break free. She couldn't breathe and couldn't save herself. The only way to escape was death.
She could blame no one but herself for not being favored by her father and empress.
Chenghe had always stayed by her side, but that year he had to leave the palace in a hurry due to an urgent matter, leaving her alone in the huge palace.
That day, she finished composing a poem and wanted to show it to her father, hoping to hear his praise. However, for some reason, there was no one in her father's palace; it seemed as if everything had been taken away. Although she was puzzled, she thought about her father's upcoming praise and quickly forgot about the matter.
But when she arrived at the palace gate, she stopped in her tracks, hearing her father's stern voice from inside.
“Once Feng’er ascends the throne, there will be no need for her to stay.”
Another person hesitated and said, "But the Crown Princess seems to be very protective of the Fifth Princess, if..."
"Moreover, that person said that the Fifth Princess's fortune is connected with that of the Crown Princess. Isn't it inappropriate to eliminate her so quickly?"
She was the fifth princess.
She didn't know what they were saying inside, but she felt that she shouldn't move and should listen, even though she knew that eavesdropping on her father's conversation was wrong.
“Those who aspire to great things cannot be hindered by these things. I am doing this so that she can sit in that position securely. She will understand in the future.”
"As for what you said, Feng'er hasn't had any problems all these years, so it should be fine."
The other person hesitated, then said, "Your Highness the Crown Princess..."
She was quickly interrupted by a stern voice, "Since ancient times, which emperor has not ascended to that position by stepping over mountains of corpses and seas of blood? The number of his own brothers and sisters among them is countless. This is not something she can decide!"
"Besides, Nalan Jingwen is just an illegitimate child from outside the palace, and has nothing to do with Feng'er. She'll find out sooner or later!"
She stood outside the hall, her blood rushing to her head, her limbs stiff, her mind blank. Despite the bright sunshine, she felt as if she had fallen into an ice cellar, her whole body chilled.
Before she could react, tears streamed down her face like beads from a broken string. She staggered a few steps, fell to the ground with a thud, and the poem in her hand fluttered to the ground. Her tears splattered on it, quickly blurring the ink and making it illegible.
The people inside were quickly alerted, and upon seeing that it was her, they put away their longswords.
"The fifth princess."
The person's voice was flat and showed no respect whatsoever, as if she were just an ordinary palace maid.
She stared blankly at the poem on the ground, then looked up at the noble man sitting high in the hall, his face showing the familiar disgust; he didn't even want to see her.
Everything makes sense now.
Why did her father dislike her? No matter how hard she tried, her father's eyes were always filled with disgust and dislike.
It turns out it wasn't because the older sister was more outstanding, nor because she didn't work hard enough.
It's simply because she's not his child.
"Bring her in."
She was grabbed by the collar and thrown to the ground, completely distraught.
"Did you hear everything?"
The familiar voice was icy cold, devoid of any warmth.
"In that case, do you know what to do?"
Therefore, everything she sought was nothing but a joke.
She sat on the ground for a long time, but then suddenly remembered that he didn't like stupid and dull people. She got up and changed from sitting to kneeling, and kowtowed heavily to him, the noble man. Her voice trembled, and she lay prostrate on the ground, not daring to look up at him.
"My son understands."
"Your subject will not covet what does not belong to him, please rest assured."
She wouldn't compete with Nalan Fengxing, nor did she have the right to.
She didn't know how she left that day. In a daze, she returned to the palace and fell seriously ill. When she woke up, the palace was empty, with only Cheng He by her side.
From that day on, she began to indulge in sensual pleasures, becoming a dissolute and dissolute young man, living a life of debauchery in order to put his mind at ease.
A spoiled and dissolute princess who spends her days indulging in pleasures and has no ability to shoulder any great responsibilities, let alone compete with Nalan Fengxing, how can anyone not feel at ease with her?
If in the past some ministers still had high hopes for her, after she did so many outrageous things, they were all disappointed in her and turned their attention to Nalan Fengxing.
Everyone was disappointed in her, but there was still one person who felt sorry for her.
Chenghe didn't understand why her personality had changed so drastically, becoming so unfamiliar and extreme, but she said nothing and silently followed behind her, taking care of everything for her.
Chenghe felt that she must have been wronged because she wasn't there.
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I wonder if anyone else noticed that the female lead isn't actually aloof or quiet. On the contrary, she's thoughtful and quite composed. She's not a block of wood either, and she doesn't reveal her emotions.