A goddess dwells in my heart.

Chapter 33: Is There Someone Else to Be My Childhood Sweetheart?

A hint of embarrassment flashed across Lu Zheji's face. He took a few deep breaths to calm his racing heart and his body's damned reaction before lifting the thin blanket and reaching the bathroom in the room.

The cool water poured over me finally calmed the heat and excitement that had come from my dream.

After he dried himself off, changed into a clean undergarment, and sat down by the bed, the first light of dawn was already visible outside the window.

The goddess's voice rang out again: "You just...did you dream of Lin Zhengge?"

Lu Zheji did not deny it: "What you think about during the day, you dream about at night..."

Last night, thanks to the goddess's vivid and detailed description, he finally recalled in its entirety that forgotten, enchanting past.

It was the height of summer, and the academy was on a long holiday. Su Wan Ning had family matters to attend to and had to temporarily leave Chang'an to return to her hometown.

Before leaving, she was worried about Lu Zheji being left alone at the academy, so she asked Shen Kexin, Lu Zheji's only good friend at the academy, who is now Lin Zhengge, the second young lady of the Lin family, to help take care of him.

In fact, Shen Kexin's residence was right next to Lu Zheji's courtyard, but she was not satisfied with being just a neighbor. Under the pretense of being able to take care of him, she simply brought her luggage and moved into Lu Zheji's courtyard, starting a short period of cohabitation with him.

One day, Lu Zheji suddenly developed a high fever and became delirious. This was actually the flare-up of his congenital weakness of the soul, a precursor to sudden memory loss.

Shen Kexin claimed to have some medical knowledge, so he didn't take him to see the academy's physician. Instead, he told him to lie down and take a nap to sweat it out.

When Lu Zheji was awakened by a strange touch, the scene he saw when he groggily opened his eyes made his blood freeze instantly.

Shen Kexin, who was supposed to be sleeping in the outer room, had somehow crawled into his bed, and...

Her soft, jade-like body began to take shape, and her delicate, porcelain-like skin pressed tightly against his without any obstruction.

Shen Kexin happened to wake up and met his shocked gaze. While frantically pulling the blanket to cover himself, he stammered out a flimsy excuse.

At that time, Lu Zheji's only problem was poor memory; his IQ was only slightly below average, so he couldn't be considered a true intellectually disabled person.

Looking at the vibrant and enticing scene before him, how could he possibly be fooled by such a clumsy lie?

But considering their years of friendship, he wanted to let the matter drop to avoid embarrassment for each other at school later.

However, to his utter surprise, his silent and yielding attitude was interpreted by Shen Kexin as tacit approval.

Her courage grew rapidly under his lukewarm indulgence. She stopped trying to hide herself and instead used the excuse of warming her body to get even closer to him. Her soft body swayed gently in his arms like a water snake.

Shen Kexin breathed warmly into his ear, imitating the alluring enchantresses in the novels, teasing his remaining rationality in an awkward yet bold way, to the point that they almost went too far.

In the end, Lu Zheji fled in a sorry state, wearing only an outer robe, and walked along the path of the academy in the cold wind for half the night before finally extinguishing the evil fire in his heart.

The next day, Su Wan Ning returned to the academy and took over the care of Lu Zhe Ji. Shen Ke Xin, whether out of guilt or shame, did not appear for the next few days.

A few days later, after the long holiday, Shen Kexin appeared at the school as if nothing had happened. She casually told Lu Zheji that she was going to transfer to Yunlan Academy in Jingguo according to her family's arrangements, and that they might not see each other often in the future. She wanted to invite him to her home for a meal to say goodbye properly.

Unexpectedly, Lu Zheji suffered a memory lapse at that moment, completely forgetting his years of friendship with her, but remembering the beautiful memories of the long holiday vividly.

In his mind at the time, it became that this shameless woman was lusting after him, and after almost succeeding the first time, she wanted to trick him into going to her house to do whatever she wanted. She was really shameless!

So, in front of dozens of classmates, he pointed at Shen Kexin's nose and cursed her as a shameless slut who, at such a young age, had already gone astray and only knew how to seduce men.

Looking back now, if Lin Zhengge had been even slightly less narrow-minded, this childhood friendship could have ended on that day.

However, even if Lu Zheji hadn't lost his mind, he would most likely have refused. After all, such a transgression had just happened, and Shen Kexin could still invite him as if nothing had happened. If he went to the trap, he would probably be taken advantage of.

Before his memories were awakened, Lu Zheji was quite simple-minded and didn't have as many sordid thoughts as he does now. For several years, he called Shen Kexin "brother" and "sister," and he truly regarded her as his own little sister. As a result, the relationship changed back then, and he was saddened by it for a long time.

This memory now leaves Lu Zheji with mixed feelings. The fair figure, like a newborn lamb, lingered in his sleepless night and finally entered his dream.

In that immersive and enchanting dream, he still remembered Shen Kexin's skin as white as snow, and although her figure was not as voluptuous and graceful as it is now, she had her own delicate and charming flavor.

Such a lovely person! How could Lu Zheji in the dream be as clueless as he is in reality? Naturally, he savored her fully, so much so that even now that he's awake, he still feels a lingering sense of longing.

However, aside from the reminiscence and restlessness, he always felt that there was something strange about the Shen Kexin in his memory.

The Lin Zhengge he saw now was a proud and arrogant heiress from a prestigious family, as noble and unattainable as a flower on a high mountain.

The Shen Kexin in my memory was as delicate as a dodder vine, and would timidly call him "brother" like Lin Yuexi.

It's said that girls change a lot as they grow up, but this change is too great; they're practically unrecognizable.

If it weren't for the fact that he could vaguely see a resemblance to Lin Zhengge's current style of doing things when he was beating someone up in a sack that night, he would have doubted whether the childhood sweetheart in his memory was someone else entirely.

Lu Zheji posed his doubts to the goddess: "Qiaoqiao, don't you think Lin Zhengge used to be a bit strange? Sometimes she had a bit of that current toughness, but most of the time she was gentle and weak. Isn't that too contradictory?"

The goddess seemed to hesitate for a moment before slowly speaking: "It's alright, she's always been like this since she was little."

"It's always been like this? What do you mean?"

"In my opinion, she may be naturally gentle and weak. It's just that certain experiences have forced her to hide her vulnerable side."

Lu Zheji frowned: "What do you mean?"

Under the goddess's description, Lu Zheji recalled an even more distant memory.

That was shortly after they entered the academy. The group of spoiled brats among their classmates had not yet learned to be more discreet, and each of them was a troublemaker who acted recklessly.

One day, Shen Kexin, for some unknown reason, offended a few troublemakers who formed a clique and was cornered in the school and verbally abused.

Lu Zheji knew he couldn't beat a group of people, but he still gritted his teeth and rushed forward to protect Shen Kexin behind him.

The result of his heroic rescue was a merciless beating. He was pinned to the ground and beaten black and blue, while Shen Kexin could only run out crying to call the instructor for help.

Afterwards, those few troublemakers were given a few light lashes, and the matter was considered closed.

But at that age, some things are not allowed.

Soon the whole school was in an uproar, calling her a tattletale and a crybaby, and Shen Kexin cried all afternoon under his comforting care.

She seemed to be provoked by this incident. When she came to the school the next day, she was like a different person. As soon as she entered the door, she started fighting without saying a word, hitting whoever she could get her hands on.

Whether they were the ones who led the bullying yesterday or just joined in, none of them were spared from the school.

That day, the school was like a field plowed by a raging prehistoric beast. Dozens of spoiled brats couldn't beat Shen Kexin at all, and were all beaten black and blue, crying for their parents.

Lu Zheji watched as the girl who usually called him "Brother Lu" in a soft and gentle manner picked up a fat classmate with one hand and threw him out of the window. Then she slowly turned her head and looked at the only person still standing in the classroom besides her.

He still remembers his reaction at the time...

"Sister, spare me!"