Chapter 35
Chapter 35
The atmosphere fell into silence, Lin Zian didn't reply, Jiang Nian's eyes darkened completely, and he hugged the person in his arms even tighter.
He called out in a low voice: "Brother Zi'an?"
Lin Zi'an's heart was in a mess, but his face was as calm as water. He tried his best to calmly respond, "Yeah."
After saying a word, he became hoarse, and he opened his mouth, not knowing what to say for a while.Lin Zian suddenly found that he could hardly trust the young man behind him, but his heart kept wanting to get close to him uncontrollably.
He felt that his reason and emotion were constantly being pulled in his body, like a saw grinding his heart numb and painful.
"Jiang Nian, you clearly said..."
Before he could finish speaking, he was interrupted, "Brother Zi'an, can you forget the bastard thing I said before? I just didn't know how to do that for a while, can't you feel my sincerity?"
Lin Zian's lips moved slightly, but he didn't say anything. He really couldn't feel Jiang Nian's sincerity.
But the sad young man in front of him prevented him from saying those almost hurtful words.
The love in his heart has nowhere to hide under the sincere gaze of the young man, just like a fire igniting his reason, the unstoppable flame burns more and more vigorously, the reason is burned out, and finally the raging emotion wins out with a slight advantage.
Try again, if you want to try again, when did he, Lin Zian, become so cowardly?
Lin Zi'an closed his eyes and said calmly, "I can promise you."
Jiang Nian's eyes lit up slightly, and the arms that hugged him couldn't help but tighten a little bit, which made Lin Zian feel tight in his chest, but he didn't resist.
Lin Zian continued: "But this is the last chance, you have to know that I only agreed to you because I like you."
This was the first time he revealed his feelings, and Lin Zian even felt an unreal feeling the moment he said it again.
The phrase "like" has been lingering in his heart for too long, so long that Lin Zian almost forgot what it was like when he had the urge to express his feelings for the first time.
When he actually said it, it was not so much an expression full of expectation and joy as a statement of a fact that everyone knew well.
Lin Zian felt like an old man in his twilight years, and he could no longer ignite any passion-like emotions in his heart.
This is a chance for Jiang Nian, but also for himself.
Give yourself a chance to continue the relationship that has nowhere to rest.
He turned his head to look at the young man who made his heart flutter, and there was still a burst of tenderness in his heart.
Lin Zian raised his hand to mess up his hair as usual, and asked softly, "You won't let me down, will you?"
A strange look flashed across Jiang Nian's eyes, he lowered his head and kissed his fair cheek heavily, and almost murmured, "No, Brother Zi'an, don't worry."
"I'll definitely think about it."
Lin Zi looked at him quietly, and struggled slightly, "Let go quickly."
Jiang Nian hugged him even tighter, and said shamelessly, "No, I haven't hugged you for a long time, I want to hug you for a while."
Lin Zian wanted to struggle at first, but was held back by his next words, "Brother Zi'an, I really miss you, you ignored me these days, I thought we would really become strangers in the future. "
Lin Zian was completely silent, he couldn't describe his current mood, sourness and uneasiness filled his heart, weighing heavily on him but he couldn't suppress the crazy feelings that came out.
He felt that he was at the junction of the volcano and the snow field, and he was hot for a while, and shivered for a while, it was a world of ice and fire.
Jiang Nian couldn't get any response from him, so he said relentlessly, "Say something."
Lin Zian looked into his eyes and said calmly: "Jiang Nian, you know the reason before, I don't want to settle the old score with you, I promise you to give you another chance, I will definitely be as wholehearted as before to you."
A trace of complicated emotions flashed in Jiang Nian's eyes. He lowered his eyes and rested his chin on Lin Zian's shoulder, "I see, don't be angry with me anymore, okay?"
"I'm not angry with you." Lin Zian didn't lie, he was angry with himself from the beginning to the end.
He patted Jiang Nian's hand, "Okay, let go, what time is it, I'm starving to death."
Jiang Nian pouted slightly, as if he wasn't very happy, but he let go of his hand obediently.
Lin Zian put on slippers and walked into the kitchen with the ingredients in his hand, asking, "When are you leaving?"
Jiang Nian blinked, and the expression on his face instantly collapsed when he heard the words, he muttered dissatisfiedly: "I've only been here for a long time, and you're going to drive me away, you're so bad."
Lin Zian couldn't help but get goosebumps, "Jiang Nian, can you speak normally."
"Why don't I speak normally." Jiang Nian blinked and said with a smile, "I'm telling the truth, you used to keep me for dinner."
Lin Zian turned his head and glanced at him, seeing his provocative eyes, he burst out laughing.
Unable to laugh at this, Jiang Nian immediately pounced on him, as if he was about to hug him, but he dodged to the side.
Jiang Nian wasted no time, and immediately looked at him pitifully, Lin Zian tapped his forehead lightly, "Don't bother me if you want to have dinner."
This sentence meant to keep him for dinner. Jiang Nian, who got his wish, was finally honest, but he stayed in the kitchen without leaving, smiling at the busy Lin Zian, and giving him a hand from time to time.
Lin Zian originally wanted to kick him out, but found that he was really okay, so he let him go.
After working for an hour, Lin Zian made three dishes and one soup.This week, my aunt asked for leave. Lin Zian has been eating takeaways for a few days. If you eat too many takeaways with heavy seasonings, your mouth will get tired of it. Today, I can finally eat a delicious home-cooked meal.
Although the two got back together, Lin Zian still had a small knot in his heart, so Jiang Nian was the only one talking all night, and he would only answer a few words from time to time.
But even so, Jiang Nian didn't seem to be bored, on the contrary, he was always in high spirits, his passionate eyes were undisguisedly stuck to Lin Zian's body, and his precarious heart hanging in the air seemed to touch the ground.
Afterwards, the relationship between the two finally returned to the same state as before.
At eleven o'clock in the evening, Jiang Nian refused to leave as before, but Lin Zian didn't want him to stay. He felt that he needed some alone time today, and thought about the future development of him and Jiang Nian.Jiang Nian couldn't resist him, and he was wronged, so he half pushed back and went home.
But in any case, the relationship between the two finally survived the harsh winter and ushered in the early spring.
After sending Jiang Nian away and closing the heavy anti-theft door, the originally lively TV sound became a little colder, and Lin Zian's chaotic thoughts all night gradually became clear under this deserted atmosphere.
Jiang Nian's behavior today was actually a little strange, but he didn't want to think too much about it just now.Although Jiang Nian seemed calm and harmless, he actually had deep thoughts. If he said today that he didn't know Lin Zian's feelings for him, it would arouse suspicion.
However, the rhetoric he chose was "uneasy".
Lin Zian can also understand the emotion of "uneasy". After all, both of them are Omegas, and they are different from the mainstream feelings of society. It is normal for the other party to be uneasy.Lin Zian couldn't help but wonder if Jiang Nian also guessed his thoughts and chose this way to cater to him.
He dared to take this idea in his heart, but he suppressed it with reason.
I can't guess anymore, since I promised the other party to get along well again, I have to trust him, if I can't completely trust him, why go any further.
If a relationship is full of suspicion, it will only hurt both parties, and no one will benefit.
The next day Lin Zian arrived at school before the morning reading for an unprecedented time.
Jiang Nian arrived early, was sitting on the seat with his head down, not knowing what he was doing, when he heard the movement in front of him, he raised his head, his eyes lit up when he saw Lin Zian, like a child seeing his favorite toy.
"Brother Zi'an, good morning."
The irritability in Lin Zian's heart dissipated a little, Jiang Nian's reaction was as if nothing had happened between the two of them, they were still so frank and intimate.
"Good morning." He nodded. "What are you doing?"
Jiang Nian blinked, his sly expression looked very cute, he smiled slightly, a small dimple appeared on the left corner of his mouth, "Do you want to know?"
Lin Zian originally just asked casually, but now he is really curious, "What is it?"
Jiang Nian said relentlessly, "Answer me first, do you want to know?"
Lin Zian raised his eyebrows, "Little bastard, hurry up and stop talking."
After he said this sentence naturally, he couldn't help but froze, and the two of them seemed to have returned to the past in a daze.
Jiang Nian pouted, "No, unless you answer me first."
There was a smile in those eyes, and Lin Zian's heart began to beat accordingly.
"Fuck." He cursed in a low voice, and said angrily, "I want to know, okay? Tell me quickly."
Jiang Nian took out a cross-stitch-like thing as if offering a treasure, with a few words stitched crookedly on it, but Lin Zian carefully identified it for a while, but he couldn't see what was embroidered.
"what is this?"
Jiang Nian pouted and said dissatisfiedly, "It's so obvious, can't you see it?"
Lin Zian looked at it seriously for a few seconds, then shook his head, "I can't tell."
Jiang Nian's shoulders collapsed in an instant. He turned the cross stitch back and looked at it carefully for a few seconds, and muttered, "Is it so ugly? Can't you see that it says 'Brother Zi'an, be happy all the time—your baby Jiang Say '?"
The distance between the two was very close, and Lin Zian could clearly hear him talking to himself, and he couldn't help but burst out laughing.
Hearing his laughter, Jiang Nian raised his head and gave him a dissatisfied look, "Don't laugh!"
The roots of his ears were flushed red, Lin Zian forced himself to hold back, nonchalantly talking nonsense: "I didn't laugh."
The corners of his mouth kept rising, revealing his true emotions.
Jiang Nian looked at him quietly, and suddenly leaned into his ear and whispered: "Brother Zi'an, if you laugh again, I'll kiss you right here."
Lin Zian froze for a moment, stretched out his leg and kicked him lightly, "Little bastard, are you itchy again?"
Jiang Nian blinked and smiled at him.
Lin Zian looked at his smile and had nothing to do with him.
The bell rang and morning reading began.
Everyone in the class was secretly looking this way, Lin Zi'an knew it well but didn't take it to heart, Song Enli was puzzled and worried, but couldn't find a chance to ask.
It wasn't until the morning reading was over, when Jiang Nian got up to go to the bathroom, that he caught Lin Zian and asked, "What's going on with you two?"
"Just what you saw." Lin Zian responded.
Song Enli grabbed his neck, "Quickly, didn't you plan to have nothing to do with him before? Lin Zian, you shouldn't be that stupid, are you planning to fall down in the same pit again?"
"No." Lin Zian denied.
"No? No, then what are you doing!" Song Enli couldn't help raising his voice, seeing Lin Zian glaring at him, he immediately realized the problem, and suppressed his voice, "Isn't it? There are many people who like you It’s gone, do you have to look for this?”
Lin Zi'an knew that the other party was worried about him, but many things could not be explained clearly in a few words, especially those related to feelings.To be honest, he didn't even understand what he was thinking.
How can he explain this kind of fucking emotion to others?
Lin Zian sighed in his heart, but his face was very calm, "I know what you are worried about, I don't know how to explain it to you, when I can guarantee that I am awake now, I know what I am doing, You know it too, so you don’t have to worry about it.”
"You..." Song Enli wanted to say something, but seeing his rational and firm eyes, he couldn't say anything in the end.
"Okay, you've always been very thoughtful." He sighed, with a worried tone, "I'm just worried that you are too soft-hearted."
Lin Zian sneered, "What are you thinking? When did my heart soften?"
Song Enli looked at him quietly, rarely making jokes with him, "Zian, you always think that you are sober and indifferent, but you are not. You are kinder than anyone else, and you always think of others in a positive way. , The people you meet all the time are indeed good people, but once you meet someone who is scheming, you will definitely get hurt."
"I'm not saying that Jiang Nian is the kind of person with ulterior motives, but I have to remind you that he is not as innocent as he appears on the surface."
"I know." Lin Zian put away his joking expression and said seriously, "I know everything, don't worry."
"Okay." Song Enli finally closed his mouth.
Lin Zian lowered his eyes, but his heart was not as calm as it appeared on the surface.
He also doesn't know whether the choice he made is correct or not, but he can't let him go, he can only take one step at a time.
He thought, Jiang Nian, don't let me down.
The author has something to say: Unfortunately, Brother Lin, you will still be disappointed.
感谢在2020-08-2316:20:39~2020-08-2322:28:49期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~
Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: 28 in one day, 1 leaf leaf;
Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!
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