Chapter 34
Chapter 34
Lin Zi looked at him quietly, his gaze seemed to want to penetrate his false surface, and after a while he said with a half-smile, "OK, I accept your apology."
Seeing that smile, Jiang Nian felt as if he had been pricked by a needle, and his heart felt a little numb.
Lin Zian shook his hand, and asked calmly, "Can you let me go?"
The hand that clasped him was tightened for a few minutes, and then suddenly let go the next second.Looking at the freed hands, Lin Zian felt an uncontrollable loss for some reason, but he forcibly erased this loss from his mind.
"Is there anything else?" Lin Zian lowered his eyes to hide the surging emotions in his eyes, and asked lightly.
Jiang Nian pursed her thin lips, and the look of grievance in his eyes disappeared completely, "Is this the only way we can get along in the future?"
"Like a stranger."
Lin Zian's heart skipped a beat, and the wordless anger in his heart grew stronger and stronger, but he suppressed the anger rising to his throat, and he took a deep breath, "It's you who think too much, we're just recovering I learned the way of getting along with an 'ordinary classmate'."
"Ordinary classmate?" Jiang Nian laughed, with a hint of sarcasm in that laugh, as if mocking Lin Zian's self-deception, "Brother Zi'an, you also kiss and hug other classmates?"
The other party's words were like pouring a bucket of gasoline on the raging fire, directly detonating the fire, Lin Zian only felt that his heart and lungs were about to explode.
He knew he shouldn't ask, but he couldn't restrain himself from asking: "Aren't you the one who has been emphasizing 'friendship'?"
"Yes." Jiang Nian looked at him firmly, the depth of his eyes made Lin Zian shudder, "I said it."
He suddenly stretched out his arms and pulled him into his arms. Lin Zian was caught off guard by his movements, but when he came back to his senses and wanted to break free, he found that the two arms could not be unscrewed like metal buckles.
"Jiang Nian, let go!" Lin Zian roared in a low voice.
Jiang Nian was completely unmoved, he hugged the person in his arms tightly, with great strength in his hands, as if he was afraid that if he accidentally relaxed his strength, that person would move away from him again.
He lowered his head slightly and attached himself to Lin Zian's ear, whispering like a devil tempting people to fall: "Brother Zi'an, weren't you happy in the previous relationship? Why do you want to change, isn't it good to continue?"
"We will still be as happy as before." The low voice was bewitching.
However, to Lin Zian, these words were like a bucket of ice water being poured from the top of his head, which made him tremble all over, and even his heartbeat began to slow down.Boundless coldness spread from his heart like his whole body, and for a moment he even felt that the breath he exhaled was covered with a thin white mist.
The coldness that made his hands and feet stiff made him calm down, he felt a little tired from the bottom of his heart, he no longer felt disappointment and anger, even the dull pain in his heart that haunted him for a whole day and night was gone.
At this moment, Lin Zian clearly realized that the cute and straightforward Jiang Nian was probably a disguise, and this realization made his fingertips tremble uncontrollably.
Lin Zi'an was like a figure being affected by an invisible thread, he heard himself saying in a very calm tone: "I've had enough fun, I don't want to play anymore, you can find someone else to accompany you to continue playing with this kind of 'ambiguous' game."
Every word he uttered was like a knife, all stabbed in his heart, dripping with blood.
Lin Zian didn't feel any pain, but the smell of blood lingering at the tip of his nose made him nauseous.
The light in Jiang Nian's pupils completely sank, and the dark eyes sparkled, and the complex emotions in the eyes were unpredictable.
He half closed his eyes, buried Lin Zian's neck and said in a coquettish tone: "I will be sad if you say such a thing, I will give you a chance to take it back."
The last sentence reveals a trace of coldness.
Lin Zian didn't appreciate his "kindness" at all, "Thank you, but I don't need it."
The arms around him unconsciously tightened a little, making him a little out of breath, but Lin Zian didn't say a word, quietly letting others manipulate him.
He is exhausted physically and mentally now, and has lost interest in resistance.
Lin Zian felt that this world was really fucked up, and he uncontrollably recalled that when he was marked by the scum Alpha twice before, Jiang Nianyu was his salvation.But now this "salvation" pushed him deeper into the depths of hell, causing him to feel pain all over his body, as if he was about to vomit blood.
"Lin Zian." Jiang Nian called his name heavily, "I'm angry."
Lin Zian said indifferently: "I can't take care of your emotions, I can only take care of myself."
"You are so selfish." Jiang Nian suddenly laughed softly, but there was no smile in his eyes.
Selfish?Lin Zian was hit by these two words until his eyes went black.
How could he get the word out of his mouth?Who is selfish, who is using other people's feelings to act recklessly.
He, Jiang Nian, why should he be said to be selfish? What qualifications does he have? !
Lin Zi'an closed his eyes, and the emotions in his eyes completely disappeared. He stared fixedly at the bushes not far away with only branches left, and the feeling of desolation spread from his heart to his whole body.
"Yes, I'm selfish. Everyone is selfish. Is there a problem?" Lin Zian said, pushing him away forcefully, "It's class time, I'm leaving first."
After finishing speaking, he didn't want to see what Jiang Nian's expression was like now, so he tried to leave step by step with the most steady steps, just like how he approached this young man step by step.
How he got in is how he got out.
Lin Zian has never lacked this kind of freedom, even though his heart is so painful that it is about to burst, but his spine-like self-esteem supports him to save the last face and retreat.
Jiang Nian watched his leaving back, his eyes were full of permeating coldness.
He chewed the three words hard and spit them out.
Lin Zi'an, Lin Zi'an.
He is bound to get it.
After that conversation, Jiang Nian came into contact with him as usual, and was alienated from him.The distance between the two is getting farther and farther, no matter what Jiang Nian does, he can feel the wall erected in Lin Zi'an's heart against him.
After bumping into the wall a few more times, Jiang Nian suddenly stopped approaching him. Lin Zian breathed a sigh of relief, but at the same time felt a sense of loss. This emotion made him extremely dissatisfied with himself.
The two lived together peacefully for another week, and when it was early December, school would be dismissed early for the monthly exam.Lin Zian packed up his things, planning in his mind that he could cook a good dinner tonight and reward himself.
Lin Zian was carrying a few bags of fresh ingredients from the supermarket, and as soon as he stepped out of the elevator, he was startled by the figure sitting at the door, and his steps could not help but pause.
Jiang Nian raised his head when he heard footsteps, his eyes lit up when he saw him, the same eyes as before made Lin Zian feel as if for a moment it was a lifetime away.
He quickly cleaned up his chaotic mood, and asked lightly, "Why are you here?"
A trace of grievance flashed in Jiang Nian's eyes when he heard the words, he slowly lowered his head, the broken hair on his forehead covered his eyebrows, and he said in a low voice, "Brother Zi'an, do you hate me so much that you don't want to see me again?"
Lin Zian was taken aback for a moment, and he pursed his lips, "No, you should tell me in advance if you want to come."
"If I had asked you in advance, you wouldn't have let me come, would you?" Jiang Nian bit his lower lip, looking sad.
Looking at him, Lin Zian felt as if someone had pinched a bit of flesh in his heart with tweezers, making his heart numb and painful.
Jiang Nian was right, if he had asked in advance, Lin Zian would not have agreed to let him come.If possible, Lin Zian only hoped that he would be as far away from his own life as possible, and would never let him step into his private realm again.
"No." Lin Zi'an replied.
"Really?" Jiang Nian's gaze seemed to be glued to his body, staring at him until hairs all over his body, and suddenly laughed softly, "Okay, I believe it."
Lin Zian was confused by his unpredictable behavior, he couldn't help asking: "What do you want from me?"
"Can't I come and see you if I have nothing to do?" Jiang Nian asked back.
Lin Zian lowered his eyes, and the hand that entered the password couldn't help but tense, "You can see it now, you can go."
There was a hurt expression on Jiang Nian's face, Lin Zijian pretended not to see it, he didn't want to be affected by Jiang Nian's eyes and expressions again.
Jiang Nian just looked at him like this, and when he was sure that the other party would not comfort him like before, those bright eyes dimmed completely, "Can we only get along like this in the future?"
"Yes." Lin Zian said very calmly, "I have already said it very clearly before, if you still want to play some 'ambiguous' games, please find someone else, I will not accompany you."
"If you have nothing to say, please go."
Lin Zian said that he was about to close the anti-theft door, but he was squeezed in through the crack of the door unsuspectingly, and his whole body was tightly hugged by his tall body.Lin Zian only felt a ball of anger burning in his pretending calm heart, which burned to the top of his head in an instant.
Subconsciously, he pushed his elbow back, hard against Jiang Nian's lower abdomen, and let out a painful moan in his ear but didn't let go.
Lin Zian said in a cold tone, "Jiang Nian, don't make things so ugly."
Jiang Nian shook his body, but hugged him even tighter, his eyes turned away from him looked like a hunting beast, but his tone of voice was almost gentle.
He buried himself in Lin Zian's ear, and whispered like a whisper: "Do you hate me, I really don't want to lie to you."
"We are all Omega, and there is no such relationship in the public's perception. This is the first time I have a different feeling for a person, and I don't know what this feeling is." Jiang Nian's eyes were full of confusion , "Brother Zi'an, can you give me some time to think about it."
"You can't just sentence me to death without giving me a chance."
He almost begged, "I beg you, give me a little more time."
His eye sockets were red, those black pearl-like pupils were full of moisture, Lin Zian's heart was tingling and aching like being pricked by a needle.But what he said before was calm and breezy, reminding Lin Zian all the time what kind of person in front of him is.
He scattered Lin Zian's little courage, and now he asked him to pick it up again, but the crushed courage had disappeared somewhere.
Lin Zi'an felt like a living target standing on the battlefield, facing the enemy from both sides, with nowhere to go.
The author has something to say: Thumbs up for Jiang Nian - Best Actor.
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